Valentine's Day is supposed to be a time of celebration in affectionate romance. Regardless of the cheesy and often insincere recognition of the holiday, it's impossible to avoid the love in the air today. The huge problem with this, of course, is that it makes it even more obvious if you're one of the many teens, myself included, that don't have any romance.
As couples hold hands, kiss, and hug rampantly in the school hallways, and love is championed through cheap cards and cheaper candy, it has a bitter-sweet effect on me. Like I said, it makes it even more painfully obvious that I don't, and can't, share in the spirit of this manufactured holiday; it clarifies that the one person with whom I wish I could be holding hands with, kissing, and hugging (my best friend), is forever out of my reach.. and it's salt in the wounds when I see him doing these with his own girlfriend.
But I'll spare you the self-pity. I did say that Valentine's Day was bitter-sweet.
Today can still afford some benefit to those of us who, due to the close-kept secret of our sexualities, are restricted in our desire for love. Simply put, the widespread affection around this day is something that we can celebrate in itself; we can be happy for those who are happy in their relationships, and it can also remind us to look ahead to when we will be able to share in it. It's not a very intrinsically large benefit, I have to admit, but it is one that gives me something to think about - and look forward to. I will continue to believe for everyone in my situation that there is a soul-mate out there for you (if you haven't found him/her already) who will make you forget all of these problems.
Even if you don't buy it, I've been getting caught up in the spirit of today, and have randomly pulled some online pictures representing the profound, influential, genuine, and universal emotion of love, and decided to compile them here, if you're interested. Don't take it as pathetically mocking anyone's inability to achieve the feelings in these pics - think of it as nothing more than catharsis. I could stare at these all day long.
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