Hypocrisy?

I want to acknowledge that a lot of what I've said as advice or comfort - and will most likely say in the future - seems to have a slightly hypocritical aspect to it, I feel.

What I mean is that I'm going through the problems, worries, and troubles of a closeted gay teen, so obviously I'm not too good at following any advice I write on here. It's one thing to say that everything will be fine, and another to believe it. What I'm asking you (anyone who wants my advice) is to understand that I mean what I say; but don't think I'm acting as if I've overcome the problems I write about. I'm on the path as well - which is why I wanted to offer a perspective that you could relate to.

I think the biggest problem with depression, cynicism, or just pessimism, is that it creates an overwhelmingly nihilistic apathy in oneself. It makes us too apathetic to even believe the rationality that's required for happiness - happiness for the future, in my case. We can understand and agree with things that might be utterly rational and probable, such as that we will most likely find love, but depression (and I don't necessarily mean clinical depression) doesn't allow us to regard them as such.

Despite being completely rudimentary, an easy way for me to explain this is that my 'heart' and my 'brain' aren't agreeing with each other. My brain knows the comfort I try to give on here is true and, most likely, obvious. Yet my 'heart' is too apathetic to believe my brain's rationality. So this leads to the difficulty in overcoming emotional strains, and the sense of hypocrisy I feel when writing about them.

Still, it goes without saying that our brains' rational thoughts should be acknowledged, so maybe I'm not totally speaking out of my ass.